Both those prints hang on my walls in my home. Catwoman is a sentimental favourite heroine of mine. She has nine lives, is a survivor, but does it all so very glamourously.
The second one reminds me of a character I created years ago named Magnus Lyme, aka, The World’s Most Dangerous Woman.
When she wears her red dress, watch out.
When people come to my house, they usually say that you can tell an artist lives here.
It’s true. You can tell a lot about me from my house. I am not a secretive person. I am an open book.
My fiction also represents me in different ways.
When I did Chaser the first time, I was open. There were things that pissed me off no end. I put my cards on the table, and that was the reason I used playing cards as an allegory for the website.
Particularly the Queen of Hearts. Particularly the rigged game of Find the Lady.
I talked about magic tricks. There was a reason.
There were many reasons for it. If you are going to chronicle reality, you have to face it first.
And the best way to face the failings of a profession is by working in it.
When you have things on the line and your future invested in it, you have a completely different mindset.
Because when you are walking among those you are studying, it is a completely different experience than merely looking on the outside.
There is an interesting story about a doctor who had cancer:
As A Doctor, I Thought I Knew Cancer Inside And Out. Then I Found Out I Had It.
And he discovered he didn’t know as much as he thought.
He went into a version of Method Version, a post-hoc version, but he was trained to know it as a scientist.
I did the same thing with journalism (and if any moron gets offended by me comparing myself to him, fuck you. I had cancer while looking after a mother who had it at the same time. Read the memo, asshole).
When you compare your understanding before the event and after, you cannot believe how clueless and naive you were. You cannot compare.
That’s why journalism turned into a garbage pile. There is no method to the research.
And we now have a sterilized generation who think they are cunning by not doing anything and living in a bubble: you cannot be an armchair opinionist. You have to get dirty, beat up, make mistakes, and live through it — but when you go in with a plan of study, you are not wasting the ass-kicking you get: you go back and learn. Eventually, you kick-ass yourself as you gain mastery.
You see how the problems really operate. You don’t take educated guesses because it is on your own skin that you feel it as you immerse yourself in it.
Journalism has no transparency.
For example, what PR firm or lobbyist is behind this cover? What generous benefactor hijacked or co-opted coverage? What friends in high places are waging war through the media? Positive and negative coverage has those who benefit, and yet we keep pretending the work is objective or accurate.
I worked as a journalist. I heard the cheerleading and the demonizations in equal measure. I have heard reporters who bragged about their own drug use condemn newsmakers for having substance abuse issues in their reports.
Psychoanalysts have to undergo psychotherapy before practicing their trade. Journalists should be made to do the same as well as their overlords. You would not get the cocky propaganda being spewed now.
I saw how twisted the logic became in the profession. I saw the justifications and sophistry used to make excuses for rot.
That is the reason I have always been an open book. Unless you have torn yourself to shreds, you have no business tearing other people to shreds. Journalists are assholes, plain and simple, and they should be torn into a million little pieces.
And that’s what I have done as a Method Researcher.
I tore that profession to shreds, examining every atom. I examined it as I broke through façades to see how that industry was dysfunctional.
And bigoted, misogynistic, and ignorant.
It is hard to imagine that in 2019, people don’t make demands.
And call for a replacement.
I have the blueprints because I know how that garbage was left to fester.
Because I am a Method Researcher…